All of the people come and go, never really lived.

I think God has really pressed on my heart lately to start finding happiness in Him, and not my circumstance. I get so caught up in think about my next move, that I forget to enjoy life and the beauty that surrounds me. It’s easy to find discontent when you’re looking in the wrong places. With that said I think my “next step” is getting closer to God and finding contentment in Him. I don’t think I would make a very big imprint on the world (whether it be in music, missions, etc.) if I can’t find happiness solely in Jesus.

I really think God offers us true independence through walking in His love. We can make it through any hard time, or transition by simply finding joy in Him. It’s a pretty incredible thing when you think about it.

Judi's glasses look good on me!

I was driving home, listening to "Jump" by Van Halen and noticed these lovely glasses on the seat. I think this is a good look for me.

Thanks again to Mark and Judi for letting me use their truck while my car is in the shop!

Up and running!

Tracks have finally been laid down!

Last night, we all got together and tied up all the lose ends of our little home studio. It feels good to write music with no prerogative besides producing art. Some day, it may see the light of day, but at this point, I personally don't care.

In other music news, I might be filling in on second guitar for a couple shows with my friend's band "Cameron at Bay". Check out their music, it's sexxxxy:

myspace.com/cameronatbay

Nick Drake Rarities CD!

So I have had an unhealthy obsession with singer/songwriter Nick Drake for the past year or so. They guy's music just connects with me for some reason. Anyway, I am very excited because this news clip was just posted on Pitchfork Media:

For a guy who died over 32 years ago, Nick Drake has been awfully prolific these days. Not content simply to loan his music to TV adverts and serve up 2004's Made to Love Magic from beyond the pale, Drake's ready to haunt emotional young people well into 2007. First up, the deceased has a new LP on the way, tentatively due in late spring or early summer on Island UK. Titled Family Tree, the disc collects some extremely rare Drake material, none of which has been mastered or released officially. While a few of the tunes have crept onto bootlegs, much will grace fans' ears for the very first time. At least, that's what they tell us-- the tracklist is not yet confirmed. Next, SXSW festival attendees will have several opportunities to indulge in their love for all things Drake. The favorably-received 2000 documentary A Skin Too Few: The Days of Nick Drake-- featuring Drake's actress sister Gabrielle Drake, his producer Joe Boyd, his arranger Robert Kirby, and Paul Weller-- will screen at the Convention Center Theater at 11 a.m. on March 17. Once sufficiently depressed, drag your feet on over to ACC Room 15 at noon, where Gabrielle, Joe, and special guest Robyn Hitchcock will discuss Nick's legacy at a panel titled "Nick Drake Remembered". Then get a glimpse of the man himself at the "A Place to Be" photo exhibit, going down at the Habana Annex on March 17 from noon to 6 p.m. This marks the first curated exhibit of Drake's official photographs, most of which were taken by the late British photographer Keith Morris. Several living musical acts will pay tribute to Drake throughout the day. Finally: If you imbibe enough, you just might catch Drake's ghost playing a few tunes in between sets from Girl Talk and the Pipettes at Pitchfork's SXSW day party. P.S. As previously reported, classical pianist/radio host Christopher O'Riley reinterprets Drake favorites as part of "Time Has Told Me: A Nick Drake Tribute", going down at UCLA's Royce Hall theater on February 16. Expect O'Riley's Drake takes to appear on Second Grace: The Music of Nick Drake, out this April via World Village/Harmonia Mundi.

My Little Desk Area

Desk Area #2

My Life

over it

I am sick of obsessing over the future. It gets so tiring and pointless. There are so many things I want to accomplish, yet I don’t feel like I have control over any of them.

Anyhoo, I am so excited to write music tonight. I have been neglecting that side of me, and it’s time to have some outlet. Sometimes I don’t think music is ever going to let me go.

I love my hand...

A shout out to amputees worldwide! HOLLA

What Dave woke up to yesterday....haha

A New Begining!

I just want to make a formal post congratulating Jonas and Tiff on being pregnant! Seriously, what an amazing thing it is when two people come together and permanently change history by bringing a new life into the world. It’s pretty incredible if you ask me. I know that your child is going to grow up being loved and adored and will spread the love of God throughout the world.

I think Christian and Taylor need a little sister. WHO”S WITH ME?!

In other news, I got a leak of the new Jesu record. It’s really stinkin’ good upon first listen.

All I can say if phew! It seems like the past few weeks have been a blur. My family all met up in Montana at my sister’s house for a late Christmas. It was such a relaxing week. It was so nice to just enjoy my family’s company and not adhere to any real prerogative. I had a lot of good time to gather my thoughts and come up with some realistic goals for 2007. I really think this year is going to be a pivotal year for my future. Here are my goals:

-Get in shape (I know this is generic, but I am already on my way!)

-Become financially mature. By this, I don’t mean “get rich”. I mean become more Godly with my lifestyle and my spending. I feel like I waste way too much money. I want to be a generous man, and share more with people who are in need.

-Get set in my future. I really want to dig in and start working for my ultimate career choice. Whether that is ministry, music, missions, etc.

-I want to start truly changing my attitude toward others. Sometimes, I feel so selfish. I want to start truly love and caring for my neighbors. I realize that this can only really happen with the help of God.

That is about it. We’ll see how the year turns out. I am really hoping to better myself and my environment.

Wake up Call

I am sick of being bitter and cynical. I know that the people who know me in real life will say that I am a pretty joyful/cheery person, but I don't feel that way in my mind. I feel like I am using every excuse possible to ignore my calling.

From my birth up until the age of 7, a lady lived with my family named Amy Fosholm. I consider this woman to be my third grandmother. Anyways, she was a complete woman of God. She would spend a minimum of 4 hours a day praying and interceding for people. She is one of the kindest people on this earth.

I was looking for something this afternoon in my storage boxes and came across a box full of pictures and letters. Overall, it was a really great time to look back at my life and all of the great relationships I have made. Two letters completely knocked me in the face. They were both from my old friend, Amy. The first, was a letter she wrote to me when I was still in my mother's womb. It was pretty much a prophecy saying that the Lord is birthing someone in my mother that was going to reach all of the nations and be a great person of God. The second letter was a follow up letter she sent me when I was in high school. It told me to chase after God and spend time with him. It told me to ignore all of the little things and get in line with the pulse of Jesus.

It's hard to explain how both of these letters spoke to me, but I feel like something profound has happened today. I feel clarity like I have never felt. Additionally, I feel extremely screwed up. I feel like I have expended so much energy and thought on things that aren't in my master plan. Frankly, I don't know what the master plan is, but I know that I need to rise up in spiritual maturity. I know that I need to disregard the petty things that plague my world.

Recently, I blogged about my frustrations with being selfish. Those thoughts have not gone away. It is time for a global view. It is time to start truly caring. As much as I want it to be, this life is not my own.

Change

This is probably the hardest blog I have ever tried to articulate. I have been thinking it over for the past couple months, and I just need to get it out of my mind and written down. I am really starting to believe that I don’t adhere to any political party. The reason this is hard for me to say is because it seems like literally everyone around me is passionately conservative.

Trust me, I am all for political awareness and social justice. I just don’t see justice happening in our current state. I think certain things about modern capitalist politics just don’t line up with the life Jesus led. Here are a few of the issues I am starting to re-think:

I am becoming a pacifist. Last night, I watched the movie, The Passion of the Christ. As I sat there in tears watching this actor’s rendition of Jesus, it became more apparent how much of a non-violent revolutionary he was. The “turn the other cheek” analogy is more than just a saying; it was a way of life for Jesus. Now, just for clarification, this is not some anti-Iraq war rant. I am simply stating my distaste for war in general. I realize our country was pretty much founded on the civil war, but to me that is not justification, it’s just history that we learn from.

I am becoming more concerned about Green Matters and the Environment. The bible calls us to be good stewards of our land, and I feel like our society has not done its job in upholding this. Everything on this earth is God’s piece of art from a mucky marsh in the everglades to farmland in the Midwest. Sometimes I think we have this attitude that Jesus is coming back before any of our environmental footprint effects anything. The fact of the matter is no one knows when Jesus is coming. It has been “at hand” since the apostle Paul was alive. One of my greatest fears is that, in a thousand years, our offspring look back at us in bewilderment at how we treated our land and showed no concern over their future. Why? So we could have 5 options in sneakers instead of 2, so we could have a 3 cars instead of two, etc.

I am reading the bible as a story, not an answer book. The bible is the tale of our existence put into poetic terms, not prose. It is the word inspired by God, not directly written by him. I believe the bible is 100% true in context, not out of it. I believe that we are still living out the bible today. God gave us the gift of his word so that we could see how past tribulations have been handled through different cultures and times. From the Spanish Inquisition, to John Wesley, to modern times, God wants us to learn from the past and grow on it. It is much like a tree and its rings. The tree keeps growing off itself and adding onto the rings already laid down, not starting new trees, not erasing past rings, but building upon them.

These are the major things going on in my head currently. Like I said when I started this thread, this is my journey. I could be completely off, and I am open to that fact. I just want to be open with my thoughts and not stifle “different” thinking. By the way, I realize that my points kind of went beyond politics and into just my general orthodoxy. Sorry for the scatter-brained post.

Sun Kil Moon is way too good.

Whoa, I got this mobile blogging thing set up. That is what that picture is in the previous post. I am glad they finally released this feature.

I had a decent weekend. On Friday, my company hosted a holiday party. It was nice to get all dressed up and be “swank” for an evening. I will post a picture of my date and I later (Once I get the picture uploaded). On Saturday, I saw “Apocalypto”, the new Mel Gibson movie. It was spectacular. I was enthralled in the story all the way through. That evening, I went and watched Sean’s band Cameron at Bay. They killed it. By far the best band of the evening, I hope Sean and the guys keep plugging away at it, because they have a ton of potential. After the show I went to a lame party, and since I don’t drink much anymore, I pretty much just sat there and lurked..haha. Sunday, I went to church, Pastor Leech gave a great outline of the church’s vision. I am excited to be a part of Jubilee.

Two Sexxxy DOODZ